Aw , it's already so long that i'm not posting any news here ~
but , that's okay .
it's the night of Christmas Eve here .
i really hope that the snow will fall here ~ LOL
ah , if that's really happen , then it's x'mas miracle ~!
wooo-hoo ~! How fun it will be ...
Not long after this , 2010 will end in a blink of eye !
I really miss my bloggie here ... aww ...
3 days from now is my birthday .
it's kinda sad because i can't really celebrate it with my besties right on 27th ,
but , it'll be coming soon ~! LOL
my birthday is 2 days right after X'mas .
How fun is that ? lol ... actually nothing makes it different from another dates though .
Ah , I already miss my friend .
i wonder what they're doing this X'mas and New Year ...
i wish i could spend this eves with them , though .
Ah , i also wait for school festival ~!
kyaa ~! Gakkou no Matsuri desu ~ ★
My big bro also comes home . so , it'll be so fun ,
at least i think so .
In his damn laptop , there's so many good movies and musics ! argh , why is he always got so many good stuff ????
lol
envy him so much .
Argh , but ... btw , i really want to see a white christmas here! even though the possibilities of it become true is zero percent !!
i still wish to see it .
i'm a little addict4ed to Korea right now ~
but of course , i love nippon ~! ★★★
Urgh , but , my X'mas eve is just alone at home ...
i really wanna go to church with my big bro , even though i'm not a Christian here .
hahahaha ...
But , i really believe that the Miracle of X'mas is really exist somewhere .
lol , just having so many wish this year . i love this very much ...
MERRY CHRISTMAS ★
BEST REGARDS : DEXY VANIA LOVINA ★★★
Friday, December 24, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
★ There's no way to turn back ★
when i decide that , i felt really doubt myself .
from the start there's no one that i really belive in.
but , in order to create the new me , i made that crazy decision.
You ,
who i thought i'll never involved myself to you .
i decide to involve my self .
i tried and tried to create my new self ,
but i always end up being so fake .
You told me that i'm okay just be me .
And you also told me that i don't really have to change.
but !
i have to change !
if i remain like this , i'm no good at all .
And , i decide to be myself , and left you .
i envy my friend who can open up with her friends .
i envy my friend that can get along so well with the others .
i ency my friend that can be the leader .
i envy my friend who can attract many people .
i envy my friend who always surrounded by her friends that take side with her .
i also want to be like that .
After a while not seeing YOU ,
i met you again .
i told you about how i envy all my friends that's all better than me .
and you said .
" you maybe felt that , but , don't you think that it's easier to see other people's ability and good sides than seeing ourselves good sides ? "
i stunned by hearing your words .
" you just have to realize that you're not an useless person . you also have a good side that will be useful to other people ."
And , not long after that , i become the current me .
until now , i still feel grateful to you .
Thanks to you , i can be myself now .
the current me , is the me that i love most .
i can still remember you . but , even though i don't know where you are now .
i really need to say thanks to you .
Really , you helped me .
after become the current me , there's no way i'll turn back to the old self , isn't it ?
we may look at the past , but the time that we must chase is the FUTURE .
Hey , how have you been ? i'm doing well here . Hope you also doing fine .
From : dexy to : someone kind whose name i don't know .
from the start there's no one that i really belive in.
but , in order to create the new me , i made that crazy decision.
You ,
who i thought i'll never involved myself to you .
i decide to involve my self .
i tried and tried to create my new self ,
but i always end up being so fake .
You told me that i'm okay just be me .
And you also told me that i don't really have to change.
but !
i have to change !
if i remain like this , i'm no good at all .
And , i decide to be myself , and left you .
i envy my friend who can open up with her friends .
i envy my friend that can get along so well with the others .
i ency my friend that can be the leader .
i envy my friend who can attract many people .
i envy my friend who always surrounded by her friends that take side with her .
i also want to be like that .
After a while not seeing YOU ,
i met you again .
i told you about how i envy all my friends that's all better than me .
and you said .
" you maybe felt that , but , don't you think that it's easier to see other people's ability and good sides than seeing ourselves good sides ? "
i stunned by hearing your words .
" you just have to realize that you're not an useless person . you also have a good side that will be useful to other people ."
And , not long after that , i become the current me .
until now , i still feel grateful to you .
Thanks to you , i can be myself now .
the current me , is the me that i love most .
i can still remember you . but , even though i don't know where you are now .
i really need to say thanks to you .
Really , you helped me .
after become the current me , there's no way i'll turn back to the old self , isn't it ?
we may look at the past , but the time that we must chase is the FUTURE .
Hey , how have you been ? i'm doing well here . Hope you also doing fine .
From : dexy to : someone kind whose name i don't know .
Sunday, November 28, 2010
★ Love this ! ★
My heart tightens, just a little it tightens.
If it’s tightening like this, could it be true love…?
We used to play and throw ourselves onto the shining grass, didn’t we?
We were so innocent during our childhood days.
But deep in my heart my feelings grew.
Little by little I had begun to realize them.
The more time we spent together,
The less honest I could be and instead I did things indirectly.
My heart tightens gently next to you.
I hold my heart as I gaze at you.
That’s the beginning of my tiny love.
I still can’t say it now but,
I love…you.
I’m a scatterbrain
And I go at my own pace.
Not a single thing changes but,
The light reflecting you deep in my eyes
Shines just a little radiantly.
Someday with the same feelings as me,
I wonder if you will gaze back at me. Please God.
My heart tightens, just a little it tightens.
Tightening like this, my feelings begin to run.
That’s the beginning of my true love.
Deep in my chest I whispered
I love..you.
My heart tightens gently next to you.
I hold my heart as I gaze at you.
Someday with the same feelings as me,
I want you to hold me but,
Love is not…in a hurry.
i really love this ! it's a lyric from a certain song .
i love the translation , so i wanna sare this with you all !
If it’s tightening like this, could it be true love…?
We used to play and throw ourselves onto the shining grass, didn’t we?
We were so innocent during our childhood days.
But deep in my heart my feelings grew.
Little by little I had begun to realize them.
The more time we spent together,
The less honest I could be and instead I did things indirectly.
My heart tightens gently next to you.
I hold my heart as I gaze at you.
That’s the beginning of my tiny love.
I still can’t say it now but,
I love…you.
I’m a scatterbrain
And I go at my own pace.
Not a single thing changes but,
The light reflecting you deep in my eyes
Shines just a little radiantly.
Someday with the same feelings as me,
I wonder if you will gaze back at me. Please God.
My heart tightens, just a little it tightens.
Tightening like this, my feelings begin to run.
That’s the beginning of my true love.
Deep in my chest I whispered
I love..you.
My heart tightens gently next to you.
I hold my heart as I gaze at you.
Someday with the same feelings as me,
I want you to hold me but,
Love is not…in a hurry.
i really love this ! it's a lyric from a certain song .
i love the translation , so i wanna sare this with you all !
★ I skipped blogging again ★
argh !! long time no see , my bloggie !
i've been busy with my school work and tests .
and , now , i'm still on the first day of my block test .
*sigh* today is Indonesian Language and Technology Information .
TI is not hard though , i'm sure that i can get up to 90 .
but , it's kinda gloomy for my Indonesian Language ..
it's not hard , but confusing , the answers are so close to each other , and i don't know which one is best . darn it .
Tomorrow is Physics and History .
Aw , Physics's material is so many ! i might spend all night to memorize all of them .
i wonder if the teacher will give us the hard one .
*pray* Mr.Eddy m please don;t give us the hard one ! have mercy to us !
History also hard , and i really hate that subject .Everytime i study it , i always feel so sleepy . is it has anesthetic on it ??? so confusing .
i'm not a NERD type of student from the start , and i study when it was needed .
ah , of course i'm serious about it .
And , it's still rainy day ~ LOVE it so much .
my mood is good lately .
and , you know , my parents already asked me to think about my future .
What i want to be , and my university .
But , i still can't think anything else beside design , though .
Mom said it's already the time to think about it .
yeah , yeah , i'll think about it ...
i sure will ! it's my future afterall , i'll have to decide too .
ah , maybe this two weeks i'll be absent for blogging ..
this block test is harder than i thought , so i must study hard .
that's all for now , toodles ~
i've been busy with my school work and tests .
and , now , i'm still on the first day of my block test .
*sigh* today is Indonesian Language and Technology Information .
TI is not hard though , i'm sure that i can get up to 90 .
but , it's kinda gloomy for my Indonesian Language ..
it's not hard , but confusing , the answers are so close to each other , and i don't know which one is best . darn it .
Tomorrow is Physics and History .
Aw , Physics's material is so many ! i might spend all night to memorize all of them .
i wonder if the teacher will give us the hard one .
*pray* Mr.Eddy m please don;t give us the hard one ! have mercy to us !
History also hard , and i really hate that subject .Everytime i study it , i always feel so sleepy . is it has anesthetic on it ??? so confusing .
i'm not a NERD type of student from the start , and i study when it was needed .
ah , of course i'm serious about it .
And , it's still rainy day ~ LOVE it so much .
my mood is good lately .
and , you know , my parents already asked me to think about my future .
What i want to be , and my university .
But , i still can't think anything else beside design , though .
Mom said it's already the time to think about it .
yeah , yeah , i'll think about it ...
i sure will ! it's my future afterall , i'll have to decide too .
ah , maybe this two weeks i'll be absent for blogging ..
this block test is harder than i thought , so i must study hard .
that's all for now , toodles ~
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
★ the invitation to the ball ★
When you read how the heroine of the fairytale is always in happy ending ,
don't you feel envy ?
Because in reality ,
No matter how hard you pray for it , the fairy tale like happy ending never exist .
when the heroine live happily ever after with the prince charming ,
don't you think that i seems so fake ?
Because the world is not as sweet as that .
But , I never blamed the fairy tale for letting us dream for the same happy ending.
Because even me also hope the same thing .
When you wear worn out clothes and work hard for life .
Suddenly one day , you transformed into cinderella-like heroine .
and was invited to the ball , to meet the an eternal love .
Don't you think it's so sweet ?
Everyone wish for the same thing .
Fairy tale always give us time to dream .
Nothing is better than the love story like in fairy tale .
work hard to live better , and find your true lover ,
keep dreaming around what is that lover looks like .
Keep dreaming how beautiful you would be when you become a cinderella .
it's just like a cinderella story .
An invitation to the ball is just like blessing from the GOD .
The beauty of fairy tale never failed to make us dreaming a lot .
How it would be if our life in reality is as nice as fairy tale .
I always giggled when i'm trying to imagine it .
" it'd be nice if it's going to happen . "
that's just what i mumbled after i thought that it's too impossible to be granted .
Eventhough , i know that anything is possible .
So , keep dreaming around ~ and serve yourself with your imagination.
Will you get the invitation to the ball as cinderella got ?
*giggle* fairy tale sure is nice ~ !
don't you feel envy ?
Because in reality ,
No matter how hard you pray for it , the fairy tale like happy ending never exist .
when the heroine live happily ever after with the prince charming ,
don't you think that i seems so fake ?
Because the world is not as sweet as that .
But , I never blamed the fairy tale for letting us dream for the same happy ending.
Because even me also hope the same thing .
When you wear worn out clothes and work hard for life .
Suddenly one day , you transformed into cinderella-like heroine .
and was invited to the ball , to meet the an eternal love .
Don't you think it's so sweet ?
Everyone wish for the same thing .
Fairy tale always give us time to dream .
Nothing is better than the love story like in fairy tale .
work hard to live better , and find your true lover ,
keep dreaming around what is that lover looks like .
Keep dreaming how beautiful you would be when you become a cinderella .
it's just like a cinderella story .
An invitation to the ball is just like blessing from the GOD .
The beauty of fairy tale never failed to make us dreaming a lot .
How it would be if our life in reality is as nice as fairy tale .
I always giggled when i'm trying to imagine it .
" it'd be nice if it's going to happen . "
that's just what i mumbled after i thought that it's too impossible to be granted .
Eventhough , i know that anything is possible .
So , keep dreaming around ~ and serve yourself with your imagination.
Will you get the invitation to the ball as cinderella got ?
*giggle* fairy tale sure is nice ~ !
Saturday, November 20, 2010
★ sweet devil ★
Hatsune Miku - Sweet Devil ( lyrics english translation )
Make up and Dress up!
I become very lovely too!
My eyelashes are rather long, right? Mascara and fake eyelashes
Eyeliner is just perfect, yeah? Distinct shadows and highlights
For now my lips are sparkling, covered in lots of pink!
Are my breasts too exposed? Still, I prefer them like this, you know
My heels are 3 centimetres up! Standing on tiptoe, I'm about just the right height
Baby doll on my wrist, don't you feel a sweet throbbing?
Red nail polish is super-cute, right? Definitely!
Am I dreaming? Just because it’s you, don’t call it love
Don’t misunderstand me, okay! I’m liar girl
I have something to say!
Can you hear my voice? You see?
I'm being pushy again, but it's fine. I'm going in your heart!
Suddenly I pull you towards me. Can’t that sort of thing be done?
It’s easy to do it with our height difference of 10 centimetres, right?
Combing my fingers through your hair, I reassure and caress you
Look at only me! Don't turn your eyes away
Even a cynical laugh would be fine!
Embrace me right now, and it better be firm!
Don't you understand? My right hand is empty
I won’t say it again, understand!
Want you to worry about me...
I'm saucy girl.
You’re not even looking at those girls
But I’m not really jealous…
I have only you. It's shameful. Don't say.
So kiss me! Do you love sweet devil?
I really like you, actually
It must be “only me,” otherwise I won’t like it
I'm sorry not to become meekly.
"I love you baby!"
I really like you, it’s the truth
It must be “only you,” otherwise I won’t like, will I?
I have only you, it’s really true!
So kiss me! Do you love sweet devil?
Am I dreaming? Just because it’s you, don’t call it love
Don’t misunderstand me, okay! I’m liar girl
I’m sorry for all the lies, but
It must be “only me,” otherwise it’s hopeless...
Can you love me through life? That’s the promise
It’s fine for you kiss me! Do you love sweet devil?
Make up and Dress up!
I become very lovely too!
My eyelashes are rather long, right? Mascara and fake eyelashes
Eyeliner is just perfect, yeah? Distinct shadows and highlights
For now my lips are sparkling, covered in lots of pink!
Are my breasts too exposed? Still, I prefer them like this, you know
My heels are 3 centimetres up! Standing on tiptoe, I'm about just the right height
Baby doll on my wrist, don't you feel a sweet throbbing?
Red nail polish is super-cute, right? Definitely!
Am I dreaming? Just because it’s you, don’t call it love
Don’t misunderstand me, okay! I’m liar girl
I have something to say!
Can you hear my voice? You see?
I'm being pushy again, but it's fine. I'm going in your heart!
Suddenly I pull you towards me. Can’t that sort of thing be done?
It’s easy to do it with our height difference of 10 centimetres, right?
Combing my fingers through your hair, I reassure and caress you
Look at only me! Don't turn your eyes away
Even a cynical laugh would be fine!
Embrace me right now, and it better be firm!
Don't you understand? My right hand is empty
I won’t say it again, understand!
Want you to worry about me...
I'm saucy girl.
You’re not even looking at those girls
But I’m not really jealous…
I have only you. It's shameful. Don't say.
So kiss me! Do you love sweet devil?
I really like you, actually
It must be “only me,” otherwise I won’t like it
I'm sorry not to become meekly.
"I love you baby!"
I really like you, it’s the truth
It must be “only you,” otherwise I won’t like, will I?
I have only you, it’s really true!
So kiss me! Do you love sweet devil?
Am I dreaming? Just because it’s you, don’t call it love
Don’t misunderstand me, okay! I’m liar girl
I’m sorry for all the lies, but
It must be “only me,” otherwise it’s hopeless...
Can you love me through life? That’s the promise
It’s fine for you kiss me! Do you love sweet devil?
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
★ From a long time ago ★
Long long time ago .
i saw you under a big cherry blossom tree .
the lonely face that you showed me , just make my heart tremble .
your white porcelain skin , untained by any color .
i feel that i saw a goddess .
1000 years passed ..
now i was born in a tropical place .
i saw you walking on the white sand , and the breeze passed by your face .
you're crying ...
i don't know what happened to you , but i just can see you from far away .
i want to reach you , but , you seem so far away .
2000 years passed ..
now , i was born as a little boy in Paris .
i saw you again , but , you're a beautiful lady that much older than me .
your porcelain skin hasn't change . still beautiful and white .
your red lips smile at me .
now , you can smile ...
i wave at you , and run away when i saw your left hand.
there's a ring . you've married to someone else .
400 years passed ...
i sit on a bench while holding your hands .
you said that you're going to die soon .
i cry , i haven't told you my feelings yet .
from a long time ago , i love you .
and even until now ..
for thousands years , i waited , and now ...
you're going to leave me .
" sorry , i love you ." she said to me .
then she disappeared from my sight and vanished just like wind .
but , i know that you're in my heart .
always guarded my heart with your warmth and your hug .
i saw you under a big cherry blossom tree .
the lonely face that you showed me , just make my heart tremble .
your white porcelain skin , untained by any color .
i feel that i saw a goddess .
1000 years passed ..
now i was born in a tropical place .
i saw you walking on the white sand , and the breeze passed by your face .
you're crying ...
i don't know what happened to you , but i just can see you from far away .
i want to reach you , but , you seem so far away .
2000 years passed ..
now , i was born as a little boy in Paris .
i saw you again , but , you're a beautiful lady that much older than me .
your porcelain skin hasn't change . still beautiful and white .
your red lips smile at me .
now , you can smile ...
i wave at you , and run away when i saw your left hand.
there's a ring . you've married to someone else .
400 years passed ...
i sit on a bench while holding your hands .
you said that you're going to die soon .
i cry , i haven't told you my feelings yet .
from a long time ago , i love you .
and even until now ..
for thousands years , i waited , and now ...
you're going to leave me .
" sorry , i love you ." she said to me .
then she disappeared from my sight and vanished just like wind .
but , i know that you're in my heart .
always guarded my heart with your warmth and your hug .
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
★ my thought about my world ★
every night , on my bed . i always think about what my world is .
since i was small , i always been said by my parents that i hav to create my own world.
but ... what exactly my world is ?
i still don't understand .
i think that i just can create my own world alone .
and i always stay in the darkness . what should i do ?
i don't know ...
and i stared my piano in the corner of my room .
i just need the piano to fill my world with music .
my world is just like a blank paper .
no colors and just black and white . just like the piano.
piano let me knows the beauty of melodies .
i feel that i'm not alone anymore .
ad then , i found out about a new existence in this life .
FRIEND .
it's friend that make me feel that i'm not alone.
i can make my own world along side with friends .
they laugh with me .
they smile with me .
they cry with me .
they walk along with me .
they hold my hand .
friend let me know , that this world is colorful.
it's not black and white . it's full of color .
the melodies of piano and the warmth of friends's hands , complete my WORLD .
★ holiday ★
horray ! tomorrow's a holiday~!
even though it's just 1 day , it's better than no holiday ~!
aaa , today also having so much fun at school ..
ah ...
tomorrow i also have group study with my friends ..
we're about to having a play at school ~
it's better to go somewhere tomorrow , than just sit all day at home .
i'll be a piggy !
LOL
Really look forward for the play .
ah , and daddy said that he wanna buy me a sanner ASAP !
woo hoo !
Jack pot !
I also just finished my newest master-piece !
i had to spend some of my sleep time just to finished it !
no wonder that it's full-color !
yeah , my home-room teacher also praise me . haha ...
hmm , but it's sure hard to finish ... i don't know how many times i erase the false part .
and , my novel finally reach CHAPTER 9 ! and it's almost make my novel complete !
my novel will end in CHAPTER 12 . so , it's just a lil' more ~ !
keep supporting !
even though it's just 1 day , it's better than no holiday ~!
aaa , today also having so much fun at school ..
ah ...
tomorrow i also have group study with my friends ..
we're about to having a play at school ~
it's better to go somewhere tomorrow , than just sit all day at home .
i'll be a piggy !
LOL
Really look forward for the play .
ah , and daddy said that he wanna buy me a sanner ASAP !
woo hoo !
Jack pot !
I also just finished my newest master-piece !
i had to spend some of my sleep time just to finished it !
no wonder that it's full-color !
yeah , my home-room teacher also praise me . haha ...
hmm , but it's sure hard to finish ... i don't know how many times i erase the false part .
and , my novel finally reach CHAPTER 9 ! and it's almost make my novel complete !
my novel will end in CHAPTER 12 . so , it's just a lil' more ~ !
keep supporting !
Saturday, November 13, 2010
★ Damn Hot Day ★
urgh ... i miss the rainy days ...
it's so hot today . it's true that it's raining today , but just a little bit !
oh , my . after the rain stopped , the day become so hot !
i wonder if i can survive in the other country's summer ? LOL
i still can't find good camera ..
there's so many cameras , but why i can't find one that suit me best ?
my big bro said that i must wait to the new releases ...
yeah , maybe he's right ... wait and wait .
argh , but really .. why is it so hot today ?
and the heat is killing me . even though i'm in a full-AC room , the heat still come in .
damn ... so hot ...
i can't stand heat ... it's an enemy to my skin and health ( aw ) LOL
hwahahaha ..
i also waiting for IRYU season 3 to release !
i can't wait for that !
i even haven't bought my SCANNER !
i need it ! uwaaah ! my dad and mom're kinda busy lately , so i can't ask them to take me to buy SCANNER or HEAD-PHONE .
and .... SEMESTER EXAM is near ! i haven't prepare myself yet ! hwaaa !
i bet that my grades are falling down to the bottom of the hill ...
i hate Trigonometri ... hwaaa ...
it's so hot today . it's true that it's raining today , but just a little bit !
oh , my . after the rain stopped , the day become so hot !
i wonder if i can survive in the other country's summer ? LOL
i still can't find good camera ..
there's so many cameras , but why i can't find one that suit me best ?
my big bro said that i must wait to the new releases ...
yeah , maybe he's right ... wait and wait .
argh , but really .. why is it so hot today ?
and the heat is killing me . even though i'm in a full-AC room , the heat still come in .
damn ... so hot ...
i can't stand heat ... it's an enemy to my skin and health ( aw ) LOL
hwahahaha ..
i also waiting for IRYU season 3 to release !
i can't wait for that !
i even haven't bought my SCANNER !
i need it ! uwaaah ! my dad and mom're kinda busy lately , so i can't ask them to take me to buy SCANNER or HEAD-PHONE .
and .... SEMESTER EXAM is near ! i haven't prepare myself yet ! hwaaa !
i bet that my grades are falling down to the bottom of the hill ...
i hate Trigonometri ... hwaaa ...
Thursday, November 11, 2010
★ The strong Merry-Go-Round ★
"I don't want to see your face ever again." you said bitterly, as a tear ran down your cheek.
Every time you were almost swallowed by waves of contradiction; I figured you were holding in your tears.
Everyone overestimated you saying, "You're such a strong person."
You never realized it, but at some point, you began losing your true-self.
The sun that was supposed to be by your side, shattered and lost its light.
Erasing both truth and lies from back then.
Merry-Go-Round, spinning in a world of dreams,
ironically remembering you, my heart began to burn.
You know I live far away from you; and even though I know better,
my heart keeps spinning just for you. Almost like a Merry-Go-Round.
And even though that love praises the past stirring up my feelings, I still want to see you.
I do not wish it right now, but I will try to avoid it.
I am regretting ever having said it - but I don't want to know anything.
I was always searching for some sort of deep emotion within you;
a mysterious secret of yours.
Merry-Go-Round, spinning in a world of dreams,
the silhouette you left behind chases after the morning sun.
One more time someday I'll see a paradise looking back with love.
So that is why I only want to find an opportunity to reunite us by chance.
Merry-Go-Round - Spinning in a world of dreams.
Merry-Go-Round - Spinning in a world of dreams.
Merry-Go-Round - I'm still calling your name.
The sun that was supposed to be by your side, shattered and lost its light.
Erasing both truth and lies from back then.
Merry-Go-Round, spinning in a world of dreams,
the silhouette you left behind chases after the morning sun.
The sun that was supposed to be by your side.
Reminiscing on the Merry-Go-Round,
spinning in a world of dreams.
Every time you were almost swallowed by waves of contradiction; I figured you were holding in your tears.
Everyone overestimated you saying, "You're such a strong person."
You never realized it, but at some point, you began losing your true-self.
The sun that was supposed to be by your side, shattered and lost its light.
Erasing both truth and lies from back then.
Merry-Go-Round, spinning in a world of dreams,
ironically remembering you, my heart began to burn.
You know I live far away from you; and even though I know better,
my heart keeps spinning just for you. Almost like a Merry-Go-Round.
And even though that love praises the past stirring up my feelings, I still want to see you.
I do not wish it right now, but I will try to avoid it.
I am regretting ever having said it - but I don't want to know anything.
I was always searching for some sort of deep emotion within you;
a mysterious secret of yours.
Merry-Go-Round, spinning in a world of dreams,
the silhouette you left behind chases after the morning sun.
One more time someday I'll see a paradise looking back with love.
So that is why I only want to find an opportunity to reunite us by chance.
Merry-Go-Round - Spinning in a world of dreams.
Merry-Go-Round - Spinning in a world of dreams.
Merry-Go-Round - I'm still calling your name.
The sun that was supposed to be by your side, shattered and lost its light.
Erasing both truth and lies from back then.
Merry-Go-Round, spinning in a world of dreams,
the silhouette you left behind chases after the morning sun.
The sun that was supposed to be by your side.
Reminiscing on the Merry-Go-Round,
spinning in a world of dreams.
★ Ft. ★
It'll be all right! I'll yell it out countless times.
I believe your every tomorrow will be shining.
The intersection of all people whose dreams have come true is one point:
Never giving up. And that's why we're not gonna lose!
When it seems like you'll be blown away by the headwinds,
Grasp this land, try to take a chance.
Because you're not alone anymore, got it?
Go forward, more and more!
Don't give up on your awesome dream!
That's right, don't cry! Move on, my way!
Now, with the light shining down upon you
Don't even think about something like giving up!
Even if you trade being hurt again for strength.
Your eyes, always looking straight ahead,
Now can surely see the light!
You can do it, Don't give up, Yo, Wake up!! Every morning,
That's for your life
Rainy days, sunny days, the flame that burns as the fire of life has meaning and opportunity?
Nobody knows truth and future are so
The answer is here, always in your heart
Burn the world know the mind tomorrow; Believe in your heart!
She's crying now embracing our weakness,
Enveloped the world still blooms or withers in the rain
To relent and eventually disappear in exchange for something
You will look the light, straight in your eyes.
In the back of my mind a little dream of the gale shook the large world.
He Cried one of his repeated laments, looking at the sky, and roadside flowers
Ah, but we are not alone, but the other wing.
I am not worthy to be enough for you; you are me
'll Even reach that infinite sky, happiness overlap.
Go forward, more and more!
Don't give up on your awesome dream!
That's right, don't cry! Move on, my way!
Now, with the light shining down upon you.
I believe your every tomorrow will be shining.
The intersection of all people whose dreams have come true is one point:
Never giving up. And that's why we're not gonna lose!
When it seems like you'll be blown away by the headwinds,
Grasp this land, try to take a chance.
Because you're not alone anymore, got it?
Go forward, more and more!
Don't give up on your awesome dream!
That's right, don't cry! Move on, my way!
Now, with the light shining down upon you
Don't even think about something like giving up!
Even if you trade being hurt again for strength.
Your eyes, always looking straight ahead,
Now can surely see the light!
You can do it, Don't give up, Yo, Wake up!! Every morning,
That's for your life
Rainy days, sunny days, the flame that burns as the fire of life has meaning and opportunity?
Nobody knows truth and future are so
The answer is here, always in your heart
Burn the world know the mind tomorrow; Believe in your heart!
She's crying now embracing our weakness,
Enveloped the world still blooms or withers in the rain
To relent and eventually disappear in exchange for something
You will look the light, straight in your eyes.
In the back of my mind a little dream of the gale shook the large world.
He Cried one of his repeated laments, looking at the sky, and roadside flowers
Ah, but we are not alone, but the other wing.
I am not worthy to be enough for you; you are me
'll Even reach that infinite sky, happiness overlap.
Go forward, more and more!
Don't give up on your awesome dream!
That's right, don't cry! Move on, my way!
Now, with the light shining down upon you.
★ The Place of Hope ★
I don’t know why we’re afraid of it
Never ever feel like I do today
I don’t know what you pray for when you’re alone
I don’t know where we’ll go tomorrow
Never ever lose the way for you
I’ll know the reason why we are still here
Take me high
Floating like a kite
Gently make me free
Holding a thousand dreams
Hey, where do the flowing clouds go?
What do you want?
What do you see? One of these days,
The future will swallow everything up,
But I don’t mind,
’cause I will be there with you
I don’t know why I miss the moon
Never ever felt like I do tonight
You don’t have to be so nice
Just smile again
I don’t know why I think of you
Never ever felt like I do today
You don’t have to be so nice
Just be beside me
Take you high
Floating like a bird
Gently make you free
Holding a thousand dreams
In this way, hey, where are we going?
What do you want?
What do you hear? One of these days,
The future will swallow everything up,
So even on the day of the end,
oh, I will be there with you
The blue sky falls into the sea; the words’ color fades;
The red moon smiles down on us; what overflows from my fingertips is love.
Hey, where do the flowing clouds go?
What do you want?
What do you see? Just like that,
The future will swallow up
Even the sun,
But I don’t mind,
’cause we will be there again
I’ll always be with you
Never ever feel like I do today
I don’t know what you pray for when you’re alone
I don’t know where we’ll go tomorrow
Never ever lose the way for you
I’ll know the reason why we are still here
Take me high
Floating like a kite
Gently make me free
Holding a thousand dreams
Hey, where do the flowing clouds go?
What do you want?
What do you see? One of these days,
The future will swallow everything up,
But I don’t mind,
’cause I will be there with you
I don’t know why I miss the moon
Never ever felt like I do tonight
You don’t have to be so nice
Just smile again
I don’t know why I think of you
Never ever felt like I do today
You don’t have to be so nice
Just be beside me
Take you high
Floating like a bird
Gently make you free
Holding a thousand dreams
In this way, hey, where are we going?
What do you want?
What do you hear? One of these days,
The future will swallow everything up,
So even on the day of the end,
oh, I will be there with you
The blue sky falls into the sea; the words’ color fades;
The red moon smiles down on us; what overflows from my fingertips is love.
Hey, where do the flowing clouds go?
What do you want?
What do you see? Just like that,
The future will swallow up
Even the sun,
But I don’t mind,
’cause we will be there again
I’ll always be with you
★ Under the Honey Drip ★
In the corner of the room without anyone, as if licking each other's wounds, we kissed
We held the same pain, and frail, we just watched the moonlight
When I blurt out nothing but things I don't mean, I regret it
Yet you always forgive me for being clumsy
How can it, how can it be told?
I want to send, I want to send you my feelings
I love you, I love you, because it can't be expressed
In words anymore, now...
In the corner of the room without anyone, as if licking each other's wounds, we kissed
Melting in the heat when we touch each other, if only time would be stopped like this forever
In the cold wasteland, if you'll confront them again
Then I want you to forget about tomorrow and watch me for now
Hug me, hug me, to the point that it hurts
I want to tell you, I want to tell you words of love
Accept, accept all of me
I'll give you everything, so...
Even if my hands are soiled, I won't ever let you go again
Just for you, even if a sad song
Tries to tear us apart...
The teardrops that fell onto my fingertips take the form of how I feel; I want to go live with you
As we draw close together, melting in the joined heat
Oh Moon, watch us forevermore
We held the same pain, and frail, we just watched the moonlight
When I blurt out nothing but things I don't mean, I regret it
Yet you always forgive me for being clumsy
How can it, how can it be told?
I want to send, I want to send you my feelings
I love you, I love you, because it can't be expressed
In words anymore, now...
In the corner of the room without anyone, as if licking each other's wounds, we kissed
Melting in the heat when we touch each other, if only time would be stopped like this forever
In the cold wasteland, if you'll confront them again
Then I want you to forget about tomorrow and watch me for now
Hug me, hug me, to the point that it hurts
I want to tell you, I want to tell you words of love
Accept, accept all of me
I'll give you everything, so...
Even if my hands are soiled, I won't ever let you go again
Just for you, even if a sad song
Tries to tear us apart...
The teardrops that fell onto my fingertips take the form of how I feel; I want to go live with you
As we draw close together, melting in the joined heat
Oh Moon, watch us forevermore
★ Until You and the Sun shines ★
Within the unending world
Final words flourished in profusion
so real than despair
You won't turn back anymore
So shout your voice hoarse
My usual days burst
On the day when you and the Sun died
I secretly get swallowed up
By the undesired whirlpool of noise
Don't forget my voice
Until the day when we meet again
The stolen pain of my hands
Is growing ceaselessly
The glass shattered
The truth flees
Black tears flowed
Oh, the scattering season
Guide me to despair
Because even in my karma that begun
Certainly a meaning exists for sure
decide, and get my way
That's right, be yourself
Shoot down your confusion and advance
Goodbye, I'm going already
To the beginning of the end
Final words flourished in profusion
so real than despair
You won't turn back anymore
So shout your voice hoarse
My usual days burst
On the day when you and the Sun died
I secretly get swallowed up
By the undesired whirlpool of noise
Don't forget my voice
Until the day when we meet again
The stolen pain of my hands
Is growing ceaselessly
The glass shattered
The truth flees
Black tears flowed
Oh, the scattering season
Guide me to despair
Because even in my karma that begun
Certainly a meaning exists for sure
decide, and get my way
That's right, be yourself
Shoot down your confusion and advance
Goodbye, I'm going already
To the beginning of the end
★ The Infection of the DEAD ★
Infection of the dead one by one.
Infection of the dead two by two.
Infection of the dead all of you.
Give in and go eat them all.
A little dream that you gave me.
But it was just over a fading bond.
What are you you look so pale,
Hey… shall we change all of this world rules.
Horrible!May-day!SOS!
Blood of busters.
Blood of your bros dropping from all over you.
For a chance to cut off the world we used to have.
We have the deepen hidden sharpen fang.
It’s joy of the time to enjoy insane, a big bite for a taste with this dark fang.
You know what, what is the ”sane” you say?
’No, I don’t know’ Don't ask me it any more.
But, it’s nice, meeting as a bait.
Try to eat, you and you all around you all.
Horrible!May-day!SOS!
Wandering in the world
You are to seek for the phantom peace.
Holding to love you’ve lost,
shouting for what you'd had.
How much you try to fill the thirst is the soul.
Is it the sin we had in past life, is there any way just to get away?
Horrible!May-day!SOS!
Brains of busters.
Wisdom, pureness, innosent, white-raw brain.
Badness, goodness, fairness, of this world we have now.
It’s with grieving masks under unfair.
Horrible!May-day!SOS!
Blood of busters.
Holy and Bright with you what we had.
Throwing dragging breaking all you’ve got now.
Falling down to the dead and splat.
Nothing more to do see and know.
Good-bye to the insane of the dead is ’fang’.
Infection of the dead two by two.
Infection of the dead all of you.
Give in and go eat them all.
A little dream that you gave me.
But it was just over a fading bond.
What are you you look so pale,
Hey… shall we change all of this world rules.
Horrible!May-day!SOS!
Blood of busters.
Blood of your bros dropping from all over you.
For a chance to cut off the world we used to have.
We have the deepen hidden sharpen fang.
It’s joy of the time to enjoy insane, a big bite for a taste with this dark fang.
You know what, what is the ”sane” you say?
’No, I don’t know’ Don't ask me it any more.
But, it’s nice, meeting as a bait.
Try to eat, you and you all around you all.
Horrible!May-day!SOS!
Wandering in the world
You are to seek for the phantom peace.
Holding to love you’ve lost,
shouting for what you'd had.
How much you try to fill the thirst is the soul.
Is it the sin we had in past life, is there any way just to get away?
Horrible!May-day!SOS!
Brains of busters.
Wisdom, pureness, innosent, white-raw brain.
Badness, goodness, fairness, of this world we have now.
It’s with grieving masks under unfair.
Horrible!May-day!SOS!
Blood of busters.
Holy and Bright with you what we had.
Throwing dragging breaking all you’ve got now.
Falling down to the dead and splat.
Nothing more to do see and know.
Good-bye to the insane of the dead is ’fang’.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
★ Gloomy day = gloomy heart ★
today's so gloomy ..
the cloud also black ...
and it's also raining ...
the weather is cold and the wind freezing me out .
it's the same as my gloomy heart ,
even though nothing bad happen today ,
i'm so gloomy .
even though i manage to have smile on my face during school time .
but ..
it's just like haing the mask on ..
aw , i feel that i'm so bad .
don't have courage to expose my true self ...
i wonder when i can expose my true self to the world ?
i always think that the world belongs to me , so , i just do whatever i want .
it's so selfish isn't it ?
i'm still a child ... so , is it wrong to be selfish ?
it's just doesn't seems right , when i hold my feelings ...
it's just .. like ran away from my own life .
i wanna scream as much as i can ..
i wanna let out this feelings ...
let them free , and let my heart feel ease and relax .
so that i can see the blue sky and sun in my heart .
the cloud also black ...
and it's also raining ...
the weather is cold and the wind freezing me out .
it's the same as my gloomy heart ,
even though nothing bad happen today ,
i'm so gloomy .
even though i manage to have smile on my face during school time .
but ..
it's just like haing the mask on ..
aw , i feel that i'm so bad .
don't have courage to expose my true self ...
i wonder when i can expose my true self to the world ?
i always think that the world belongs to me , so , i just do whatever i want .
it's so selfish isn't it ?
i'm still a child ... so , is it wrong to be selfish ?
it's just doesn't seems right , when i hold my feelings ...
it's just .. like ran away from my own life .
i wanna scream as much as i can ..
i wanna let out this feelings ...
let them free , and let my heart feel ease and relax .
so that i can see the blue sky and sun in my heart .
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
★ Trying to make something neW ★
hmm ... i'm trying to publish my paintings in my blog ...
but , i'm still waiting for my scanner to arrive at here ...
really ...
i haven't post anything last week , i really busy ...
my friendalso said " why are you not posting any entry ? "
i just said that i don't have time lately .
nah , but at last i have time !
i also have drawn so many paintings ... so i wanna post it ..
but , it's kinda hard without scanner ..
i wanna try to let all of my friends see my paintings ...
hahaha
wait for it okay ~
but , i'm still waiting for my scanner to arrive at here ...
really ...
i haven't post anything last week , i really busy ...
my friendalso said " why are you not posting any entry ? "
i just said that i don't have time lately .
nah , but at last i have time !
i also have drawn so many paintings ... so i wanna post it ..
but , it's kinda hard without scanner ..
i wanna try to let all of my friends see my paintings ...
hahaha
wait for it okay ~
★ Grant me Some Times ★
When the first time i step this world .
i see the beauty of the world .
i see the green grass ,
the pure transparant water ,
the blue sea ,
the baby blue sky ,
and i see them , my beloved mom and dad .
they let me see the world .
they grant me life .
they grant me happiness .
and , undirectly , they give me new experiences .
meet friends ,
feel the sadness ,
feel angry ,
fall in love ,
broken heart ,
have a fight with friends ,
make up with friends ,
know the other's feelings ,
know the world ,
and fear .
but , don;t you know that's actually why we love them ?
they give us chance to feel the world , and actually find our true selves .
i know , they also suffer because of us .
but , i'll pay for their effort ...
i want to give them happiness too .
i want to let them feel , the warmth of our love .
Dad ,
thanks for always give me your love .
thanks for always taking care of me .
thanks for let me out from harm .
thanks for grant me what i want .
thanks for angry with me for my mistakes .
thanks for giving me a chance to live .
and thanks for giving me my happiness .
Mom ,
thanks for giving a birth to me .
thanks for letting me eat your delicious food .
thanks for always hug me and comfort me when i'm sad .
thanks for teaching me stuffs .
thanks for giving me advice when i'm in lost .
thanks for letting me feel your warmth .
thanks for letting me grow into a good girl .
thanks for teaching me to be a straight-forward girl .
and thanks for giving me my happiness .
Dad , Mom ..
Thanks for everything .
that's why , i want you to give me some chances .
grant me some times more .
i'll pay back all of your love .
this time , i'll be the one who give you happiness and love .
i love you Mom and Dad .
Forever in my heart .
i see the beauty of the world .
i see the green grass ,
the pure transparant water ,
the blue sea ,
the baby blue sky ,
and i see them , my beloved mom and dad .
they let me see the world .
they grant me life .
they grant me happiness .
and , undirectly , they give me new experiences .
meet friends ,
feel the sadness ,
feel angry ,
fall in love ,
broken heart ,
have a fight with friends ,
make up with friends ,
know the other's feelings ,
know the world ,
and fear .
but , don;t you know that's actually why we love them ?
they give us chance to feel the world , and actually find our true selves .
i know , they also suffer because of us .
but , i'll pay for their effort ...
i want to give them happiness too .
i want to let them feel , the warmth of our love .
Dad ,
thanks for always give me your love .
thanks for always taking care of me .
thanks for let me out from harm .
thanks for grant me what i want .
thanks for angry with me for my mistakes .
thanks for giving me a chance to live .
and thanks for giving me my happiness .
Mom ,
thanks for giving a birth to me .
thanks for letting me eat your delicious food .
thanks for always hug me and comfort me when i'm sad .
thanks for teaching me stuffs .
thanks for giving me advice when i'm in lost .
thanks for letting me feel your warmth .
thanks for letting me grow into a good girl .
thanks for teaching me to be a straight-forward girl .
and thanks for giving me my happiness .
Dad , Mom ..
Thanks for everything .
that's why , i want you to give me some chances .
grant me some times more .
i'll pay back all of your love .
this time , i'll be the one who give you happiness and love .
i love you Mom and Dad .
Forever in my heart .
Sunday, October 31, 2010
★ Dear my Friends ★
it's not my original poem or what ...
this is an english translation from ELISA-Dear my friend [ending song of To Aru Kagaku no Railgun] lyrics
i really love this song , and i wish that i can present it for all of my beloved friends ...
ENJOY ★
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with you
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with you
Just talking with you isn’t enough
The sunset dyes the city
It doesn’t go as easily as I think
When I realized it we were crying together
Love, dreams, flowers, rainbows and the wind
Let’s seize it all!
It’s all right!
Cheer up, I’m right beside you
Instead of dwelling on today’s mistakes overcome them
It’s all right!
Without losing our way let’s head towards the unseen future
And walk on forever
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with me
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with me
If it’s me I’m bothered by many things but
Even if I think about them the answer won’t come out…
If I look up I’ll see the first star in the sky sparkling
Isn’t it beautiful?
All of a sudden a smile escapes
Love, dishonor, past, present and tomorrow
Let’s take it all
It’s all right!
I’ll show you my courage, I’m not alone
Without giving up or hesitating take a step forward
It’s all right!
Without rushing let’s fulfill each wish one by one
And I’m sure we’ll become happy
5 years from now,
10 years from now,
I wonder how things will change…?
Even if we’re separated by distance I hope we’ll all be happy!!
It’s all right!
Believe me, the future is waiting
Today will be a little brighter than yesterday
It’s all right!
Without losing our way let’s head towards the unseen future
And walk on forever
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with you
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with you
i really love this song , and i really wish this happen in my life ~
but , this is enough ...
the school life that i have with my friends , i won't forget it ... !
this is an english translation from ELISA-Dear my friend [ending song of To Aru Kagaku no Railgun] lyrics
i really love this song , and i wish that i can present it for all of my beloved friends ...
ENJOY ★
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with you
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with you
Just talking with you isn’t enough
The sunset dyes the city
It doesn’t go as easily as I think
When I realized it we were crying together
Love, dreams, flowers, rainbows and the wind
Let’s seize it all!
It’s all right!
Cheer up, I’m right beside you
Instead of dwelling on today’s mistakes overcome them
It’s all right!
Without losing our way let’s head towards the unseen future
And walk on forever
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with me
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with me
If it’s me I’m bothered by many things but
Even if I think about them the answer won’t come out…
If I look up I’ll see the first star in the sky sparkling
Isn’t it beautiful?
All of a sudden a smile escapes
Love, dishonor, past, present and tomorrow
Let’s take it all
It’s all right!
I’ll show you my courage, I’m not alone
Without giving up or hesitating take a step forward
It’s all right!
Without rushing let’s fulfill each wish one by one
And I’m sure we’ll become happy
5 years from now,
10 years from now,
I wonder how things will change…?
Even if we’re separated by distance I hope we’ll all be happy!!
It’s all right!
Believe me, the future is waiting
Today will be a little brighter than yesterday
It’s all right!
Without losing our way let’s head towards the unseen future
And walk on forever
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with you
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with you
i really love this song , and i really wish this happen in my life ~
but , this is enough ...
the school life that i have with my friends , i won't forget it ... !
★ Liar is not a HUMAN ★
i really can't understand what are the liars think about ...
they lied and hide behind their lies ...
they seek for something that they won't get with the reality and use lies to get it ...
for example !
POPULARITY !!
hey , you're you ! why are you lie about yourself just for popularity ?
are you crazy ?
[ oh , i don't really talk about anyone though ... ]
i always think that liars are not human ...
i know that even i lied ...
but , i know and i dare to admit it ..
but , the TRUE LIARS won't admit it and they twist the reality ...
i don't know why ...
i just can't understand LIARS ..
i beg my friends that please don;t be liars , so that i don't hate ya ~
I ♥ YOU all my FRIENDS ~ !
they lied and hide behind their lies ...
they seek for something that they won't get with the reality and use lies to get it ...
for example !
POPULARITY !!
hey , you're you ! why are you lie about yourself just for popularity ?
are you crazy ?
[ oh , i don't really talk about anyone though ... ]
i always think that liars are not human ...
i know that even i lied ...
but , i know and i dare to admit it ..
but , the TRUE LIARS won't admit it and they twist the reality ...
i don't know why ...
i just can't understand LIARS ..
i beg my friends that please don;t be liars , so that i don't hate ya ~
I ♥ YOU all my FRIENDS ~ !
Saturday, October 30, 2010
★ Halloween , Trick or Treat ★
here's the deadly night , where the children go to play
holding a lantern to clear the road
with a naughty smile on their faces , they knocked a door of an old house in the forest
infer the silvery moon , they laugh
Come here quick ! Come here quick !
Play with us ! Play with us !
we seek for something tonight
that's why , let the party started !
their laugh echo in the forest
full of joy and full of terror
where're you going , my prey ?
whon;t you play with us longer ?
in this deadly night , let us play until the midnight comes
why won't you scream more ?
why don't you play with us ?
the children are giggling with joy and devilish smile on their faces
hey , come in to the house
it's so warm and safe
don't you realize that the moon is now crimson red ?
isn't that beautiful ?
but , i wanna see blood ! more blood !
it's okay , we'll let you sleep and rest
but , remember ..
we'll even play with you in your dream
in the own of nightmare
when you wake up in the midnight ,
we'll once again scare you and let me have some of your candies
Play with us ! Play with us !
And let us have your candies
if you don't want to meet us again ,
we'll dig your eyeballs out and blind you
but , you'll always together with us ,
because you're our prey
don't dare to run away
because we won't let you off untill you give us candies ~
" Trick or Treat ! "
holding a lantern to clear the road
with a naughty smile on their faces , they knocked a door of an old house in the forest
infer the silvery moon , they laugh
Come here quick ! Come here quick !
Play with us ! Play with us !
we seek for something tonight
that's why , let the party started !
their laugh echo in the forest
full of joy and full of terror
where're you going , my prey ?
whon;t you play with us longer ?
in this deadly night , let us play until the midnight comes
why won't you scream more ?
why don't you play with us ?
the children are giggling with joy and devilish smile on their faces
hey , come in to the house
it's so warm and safe
don't you realize that the moon is now crimson red ?
isn't that beautiful ?
but , i wanna see blood ! more blood !
it's okay , we'll let you sleep and rest
but , remember ..
we'll even play with you in your dream
in the own of nightmare
when you wake up in the midnight ,
we'll once again scare you and let me have some of your candies
Play with us ! Play with us !
And let us have your candies
if you don't want to meet us again ,
we'll dig your eyeballs out and blind you
but , you'll always together with us ,
because you're our prey
don't dare to run away
because we won't let you off untill you give us candies ~
" Trick or Treat ! "
Friday, October 29, 2010
★ Raindrops ★
today is raining again as always ...
everyday's raining now ...
so happy though ... i love how the raindrops are falling from the sky ..
somehow calm me down ~
ahahaha ...
everyone called me weird , though ~
hmm ...
today is sure tiring ...
my friends asked me if i can go to vefetarian food's bazaar ,
but ... i pass ...
i can't stand the heat this afternoon , even though it's raining and cold now ...
also ,
i will buy a camera tomorrow or maybe on sunday , as my parents promised ...
i still wondering what camera should i buy ~ ★
really confusing ...
after this i still have English class though ,
meet my friends ~★ kyahahaha ...
it's sure a wonderfull day ~
even though i've been irritated by something , but ..
nah , it's not something big , so i'll forget it in a day ...
oops ! look at the time !
i should get going !
toodles ★ i'll post something nice tonight to end this day ~
wait for it ~★
everyday's raining now ...
so happy though ... i love how the raindrops are falling from the sky ..
somehow calm me down ~
ahahaha ...
everyone called me weird , though ~
hmm ...
today is sure tiring ...
my friends asked me if i can go to vefetarian food's bazaar ,
but ... i pass ...
i can't stand the heat this afternoon , even though it's raining and cold now ...
also ,
i will buy a camera tomorrow or maybe on sunday , as my parents promised ...
i still wondering what camera should i buy ~ ★
really confusing ...
after this i still have English class though ,
meet my friends ~★ kyahahaha ...
it's sure a wonderfull day ~
even though i've been irritated by something , but ..
nah , it's not something big , so i'll forget it in a day ...
oops ! look at the time !
i should get going !
toodles ★ i'll post something nice tonight to end this day ~
wait for it ~★
Thursday, October 28, 2010
★ Something that i wish i didn't Write ★
i never told anything about this to anyone .
but , if i only keep this for me alone , the burden is too big ...
all of this words is just like me babbling around alone ...
i ...
don't know where to start ...
but , started from 8th grade , i always wonder ...
" why am i alive ? for what reason do i alive ? what do i seek in this life ? "
when i'm in elementary school , i never enjoy my school life .
yes , that's true , and i'm not even joking about this .
but , everybody at my school now , thinks that i'm a bright girl that will able to overcome any problem that comes to me.
i'll say this ..
" THAT's NOT TRUE AT ALL ! "
i'm not that kind of girl . i'm human here . of course there's problem that i can't solve even though i tried so hard .
the first thing .
my biggest problem that won't be solved ever .
" I wanna be FREE ! i need my FREEDOM ! "
yes , nobody will get the true freedom in this life , and i know it best.
and , in elementary school , i always blamed for what i didn't do ... by my own friends ..
that's what makes me hurt most .
ah , also , i don't really have friends in elementary school. yes , can be counted in 5 fingers , maybe less ...
and , i'm too quiet to get any friends.
this is what i always thinking when somebody approaches me when i'm in elementary school.
" What ? i don't trust you , and i won't trust you . so that i won't be hurt ."
that's my complex .
even until now , i never show my true self , even at school , and even to my best friends.
it's just like i'm wearing a mask in front of them .
i ... am too fragile , that's why i protect myself and create a wall to protect me from the cruel life. even though i really enjoy my life now ...
there's so many friends that supports me , and laugh along with me ...
and also , i can learn that not all of them are bad . even though , there's still bad guys everywhere .
i really change now , without realizing it , i change myself into a different people .
but , i'm still me , and i know my friends know that.
but , really ...
i'm sorry , that the me in front of you guy are fake (half of it , though).
i just can apologize here though ... LOL ... it's not like i'm gonna shout about i'm being fake .
but at least , i wanna share this , so that people don't misunderstand me..
I really gratefull that i was blessed with so much happiness now .
and i believe , that i'll be able to destroy the wall and the mask that hide the true me .
and , i'll be myself ... anytime ...
please wait for a little more ... my TRUE SELF ...
i'll introduce you to all my besties one day ...
but , if i only keep this for me alone , the burden is too big ...
all of this words is just like me babbling around alone ...
i ...
don't know where to start ...
but , started from 8th grade , i always wonder ...
" why am i alive ? for what reason do i alive ? what do i seek in this life ? "
when i'm in elementary school , i never enjoy my school life .
yes , that's true , and i'm not even joking about this .
but , everybody at my school now , thinks that i'm a bright girl that will able to overcome any problem that comes to me.
i'll say this ..
" THAT's NOT TRUE AT ALL ! "
i'm not that kind of girl . i'm human here . of course there's problem that i can't solve even though i tried so hard .
the first thing .
my biggest problem that won't be solved ever .
" I wanna be FREE ! i need my FREEDOM ! "
yes , nobody will get the true freedom in this life , and i know it best.
and , in elementary school , i always blamed for what i didn't do ... by my own friends ..
that's what makes me hurt most .
ah , also , i don't really have friends in elementary school. yes , can be counted in 5 fingers , maybe less ...
and , i'm too quiet to get any friends.
this is what i always thinking when somebody approaches me when i'm in elementary school.
" What ? i don't trust you , and i won't trust you . so that i won't be hurt ."
that's my complex .
even until now , i never show my true self , even at school , and even to my best friends.
it's just like i'm wearing a mask in front of them .
i ... am too fragile , that's why i protect myself and create a wall to protect me from the cruel life. even though i really enjoy my life now ...
there's so many friends that supports me , and laugh along with me ...
and also , i can learn that not all of them are bad . even though , there's still bad guys everywhere .
i really change now , without realizing it , i change myself into a different people .
but , i'm still me , and i know my friends know that.
but , really ...
i'm sorry , that the me in front of you guy are fake (half of it , though).
i just can apologize here though ... LOL ... it's not like i'm gonna shout about i'm being fake .
but at least , i wanna share this , so that people don't misunderstand me..
I really gratefull that i was blessed with so much happiness now .
and i believe , that i'll be able to destroy the wall and the mask that hide the true me .
and , i'll be myself ... anytime ...
please wait for a little more ... my TRUE SELF ...
i'll introduce you to all my besties one day ...
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
★ a great morning of Thursday ★
wahahaha ... today i wake up early ~ ( of course , though ... having school is so tiring ~ )
but ~! that's good isn't it ? wake up early is healthy ...
it's not like i wake up early every morning ~
for example , every saturday and sunday , i always wake up late ! soo ~ late ...
ummm , it's looks like i hibernate for a day ~
hahaha ...
now i'm at school , though ~
having a Techology and Information subject ~
we're studying how to make a blog ~ ( even though i ady have a blog account , i even join the class )
hmm ... everyone's blog is really good ~ but don;t copy any of mine , okay ~ ★ !
early in the morning , i open my eyes , and the first thing that i take is , my handphone .. ( to turn off the alarm that annoy my ears .. )
and the second thing i take is , Air Conditioner remote ... to turn off my Air Conditioner that chills me out ...
aw , but , it's true that today's a good morning ★ !
love today's morning most !
i'm having class now ~ so , toodles ★
but ~! that's good isn't it ? wake up early is healthy ...
it's not like i wake up early every morning ~
for example , every saturday and sunday , i always wake up late ! soo ~ late ...
ummm , it's looks like i hibernate for a day ~
hahaha ...
now i'm at school , though ~
having a Techology and Information subject ~
we're studying how to make a blog ~ ( even though i ady have a blog account , i even join the class )
hmm ... everyone's blog is really good ~ but don;t copy any of mine , okay ~ ★ !
early in the morning , i open my eyes , and the first thing that i take is , my handphone .. ( to turn off the alarm that annoy my ears .. )
and the second thing i take is , Air Conditioner remote ... to turn off my Air Conditioner that chills me out ...
aw , but , it's true that today's a good morning ★ !
love today's morning most !
i'm having class now ~ so , toodles ★
★ some drip of my mind ★
when i open my eyes ... i'm sitting alone in an all-white room .
i walk straight to nowhere ...
i don't know where to go ...
And at the end of the room , there's a silvery door ...
i open the door and arrived in a grass field .
the breeze is so warm and i can hear the bird chirping ..
i saw a rabbit .
and i asked , " excuse me , Mr.Rabbit ... Where's this ? "
the rabbit said , " this is WONDERLAND , miss ~ "
i stunned , and i don;t believe what that rabbit said .
" What's your name , Miss ? " said the rabbit.
eh ? it's strange ... what's my name again ?
" i don't know .. i can't remember ... " i mumbled .
Then , the rabbit disappear right in front of my eyes .
i walked through the grass field and arrived in front of a rose garden .
There's a man wearing all black attire sitting under the tree .
" excuse me , Mister ... do you know how to get out of this place ? " i asked .
That man calmly look at me .
" nope , you cannot get out from here , Miss . This is wonderland .." he says .
" why ? "
" because you're belong to this world ... "
" i don't understand . and i even can't remember what my name is ... "
" Don't worry , miss .. You'll find out the reason soon .. "
And then i get out from the garden , but suddenly i teleported to the front gate of a castle.
and a pierrot appear right in front of my eyes ..
" who are you ? " i asked the pierrot .
" i'm pierrot .." said the pierrot.
" umm , do you know how to get out from this place ? i want to go home ."
" oh , you cannot . because you're the one who create this land , miss ... and , what you want will appear right in this land . "
" huh ? i don't understand ..."
" you're the CREATOR of the WONDERLAND , miss ... "
" but , this is not my home . i wanna go back to my world ."
" as you wish ... but , you'll once again pulled into the WONDERLAND . Have a nice day ."
Suddenly the pierrot disappear and my sight becomes all black.
when i open my eyes , i was in a lavender garden. it's my home ... i'm back ...
" Wonderland , huh ? " i mumbled .
" hey , Alice ! come into the house ! "
" coming ! "
- end -
it's just a prank afterall .. don't be confused ... enjoy ~ ★
i walk straight to nowhere ...
i don't know where to go ...
And at the end of the room , there's a silvery door ...
i open the door and arrived in a grass field .
the breeze is so warm and i can hear the bird chirping ..
i saw a rabbit .
and i asked , " excuse me , Mr.Rabbit ... Where's this ? "
the rabbit said , " this is WONDERLAND , miss ~ "
i stunned , and i don;t believe what that rabbit said .
" What's your name , Miss ? " said the rabbit.
eh ? it's strange ... what's my name again ?
" i don't know .. i can't remember ... " i mumbled .
Then , the rabbit disappear right in front of my eyes .
i walked through the grass field and arrived in front of a rose garden .
There's a man wearing all black attire sitting under the tree .
" excuse me , Mister ... do you know how to get out of this place ? " i asked .
That man calmly look at me .
" nope , you cannot get out from here , Miss . This is wonderland .." he says .
" why ? "
" because you're belong to this world ... "
" i don't understand . and i even can't remember what my name is ... "
" Don't worry , miss .. You'll find out the reason soon .. "
And then i get out from the garden , but suddenly i teleported to the front gate of a castle.
and a pierrot appear right in front of my eyes ..
" who are you ? " i asked the pierrot .
" i'm pierrot .." said the pierrot.
" umm , do you know how to get out from this place ? i want to go home ."
" oh , you cannot . because you're the one who create this land , miss ... and , what you want will appear right in this land . "
" huh ? i don't understand ..."
" you're the CREATOR of the WONDERLAND , miss ... "
" but , this is not my home . i wanna go back to my world ."
" as you wish ... but , you'll once again pulled into the WONDERLAND . Have a nice day ."
Suddenly the pierrot disappear and my sight becomes all black.
when i open my eyes , i was in a lavender garden. it's my home ... i'm back ...
" Wonderland , huh ? " i mumbled .
" hey , Alice ! come into the house ! "
" coming ! "
- end -
it's just a prank afterall .. don't be confused ... enjoy ~ ★
★ get all of my stress to words ★
yeah , as the title says ...
today's kinda annoying ...
yup , something happened of course ...
i don't understand ...
if someone is making a mistake , and we said that straight to that person ... it'll be to the point right ?
what's the reason ?
because we need an apologize from that person .
but ...
my friend do the opposite ...
that friend of mine , ask for our apologize ...
isn't that weird ?
that person , angry to us , and don't wanna apologize ..
hey ! who's at fault here ?
maybe you don't know because you're not too close to me ..
" i'm not the type of person , who easily apologize to people ... except , i really make a mistake ... "
yeah , so what ?
that's how i am ...
and , sorry that i have such a high pride inside me ..
but , this is me .. who i really am ...
i really wished that you realize what you've done , and apologize nicely ...
not the opposite ...
or , making the other friends of yours made at us , who is innocent !
but , i'm not a bad person here ... and i'm not cruel as a friend of you ...
we're cleaning your mess here ...
i even forgive you and let you away in peace without any problem ..
i don't like fights ...
so , if by any chance you , " the certain" person read this ,
please understand how we feel and don't let this a reason to fight ...
we just want you to properly apologize and the problem settled ..
finished isn't it ?
okay ... this's just what i feel about this matter ...
so , oh ,well ...
it's kinda late already ... i also haven't post anything in 2 or 3 days ..
busy from tests and homeworks ... yeah , high school Banzai ! ★★
the work also incredibly many ... haha ... that's all ... ★
today's kinda annoying ...
yup , something happened of course ...
i don't understand ...
if someone is making a mistake , and we said that straight to that person ... it'll be to the point right ?
what's the reason ?
because we need an apologize from that person .
but ...
my friend do the opposite ...
that friend of mine , ask for our apologize ...
isn't that weird ?
that person , angry to us , and don't wanna apologize ..
hey ! who's at fault here ?
maybe you don't know because you're not too close to me ..
" i'm not the type of person , who easily apologize to people ... except , i really make a mistake ... "
yeah , so what ?
that's how i am ...
and , sorry that i have such a high pride inside me ..
but , this is me .. who i really am ...
i really wished that you realize what you've done , and apologize nicely ...
not the opposite ...
or , making the other friends of yours made at us , who is innocent !
but , i'm not a bad person here ... and i'm not cruel as a friend of you ...
we're cleaning your mess here ...
i even forgive you and let you away in peace without any problem ..
i don't like fights ...
so , if by any chance you , " the certain" person read this ,
please understand how we feel and don't let this a reason to fight ...
we just want you to properly apologize and the problem settled ..
finished isn't it ?
okay ... this's just what i feel about this matter ...
so , oh ,well ...
it's kinda late already ... i also haven't post anything in 2 or 3 days ..
busy from tests and homeworks ... yeah , high school Banzai ! ★★
the work also incredibly many ... haha ... that's all ... ★
Saturday, October 23, 2010
★ wide blue sky connect all of us ★
when the first time in step into this world ,
the first thing i admire is :
SKY
when the first time i see the blue sky ,
the first thing i think is :
HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE
and then , when i seperated with my beloved ones ...
i blame the fate ...
why peoples must say good-bye each other , even though people don't want to be seperated .
and then i think again ...
where's it ? the happiness ... where's it ?
i see the sky ...
it's so blue ... the tears come down to the dried cheeks ..
it's so beautiful ... i can't blame the sky ..
just the sky ... the one that i can't blame for this ...
and while i blame the fate ...
i think all over again ...
the last word they said ... is not " Good-bye " ..
it's " See you again ..."
so .. it means that we still can meet again someday right ?
i smiled ..
i lay down and see how wide the sky is ..
" incredible as always ... " i mumbled .
the sky's wide and high , indeed ...
it's beautiful indeed ...
and it calms me , indeed ...
" hey , sky ... even though you're so wide ... you do usefull ... you're so wide , that you connect every places in this world ... "
yes , skies connect all of us ...
no matter how far we're seperated , we live under the same blue sky ...
so , we'll somehow meet again ...
it's up to fate though ...
so , i can't blame the fate anymore ... i should thank "fate" , because , thanks to fate , i can see you , o' sky ...
the first thing i admire is :
SKY
when the first time i see the blue sky ,
the first thing i think is :
HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE
and then , when i seperated with my beloved ones ...
i blame the fate ...
why peoples must say good-bye each other , even though people don't want to be seperated .
and then i think again ...
where's it ? the happiness ... where's it ?
i see the sky ...
it's so blue ... the tears come down to the dried cheeks ..
it's so beautiful ... i can't blame the sky ..
just the sky ... the one that i can't blame for this ...
and while i blame the fate ...
i think all over again ...
the last word they said ... is not " Good-bye " ..
it's " See you again ..."
so .. it means that we still can meet again someday right ?
i smiled ..
i lay down and see how wide the sky is ..
" incredible as always ... " i mumbled .
the sky's wide and high , indeed ...
it's beautiful indeed ...
and it calms me , indeed ...
" hey , sky ... even though you're so wide ... you do usefull ... you're so wide , that you connect every places in this world ... "
yes , skies connect all of us ...
no matter how far we're seperated , we live under the same blue sky ...
so , we'll somehow meet again ...
it's up to fate though ...
so , i can't blame the fate anymore ... i should thank "fate" , because , thanks to fate , i can see you , o' sky ...
★ CONGRATS FOR YOUR WEDDING ★
today's my tua hia's wedding ~
the party is really great ~ his wife's also pretty in her white wedding dress ~
it's the first time i met her , but , she's really a nice lady .
i'm so stiff at first , and nervous to sit beside her this morning ... but , aw ... she's really gorgeous ~! i really wanna have a big sis like this .
and , when she's trying to talk to me , i just answer a little and i'm nervous ! don;t know wanna say what to her !
but , i realized that she's really kind to me , and ... i'm getting along well with her !
she said she wanna have kids like me ~ nice to talk to ! waaa ~ what an honour ~!
she has long hair ( wavy at the end og her black hair ) , her skin is white , and her eyes're big ~! she's such a lovely person. she loves to pat my hair ~
and , my tua hia also unbelievably cool today with his tux ! for the first time i call hime handsome though ... it's so lucky for him to have such a beautiful and nice wife like her ...
oh ! also , at the party , i'm the one who had cream all over my body ( especially on my new dress ! ah , i love that dress though ! ) ... that's because all of my cousin aim for the cream at me .. ah , of course we do it when the party ends ... as soon as i got home , i take a shower and clean all my body , even though there's still some sweet scent of cakes ...
haha ... it's good and happy night ~!
HOPE TUA HIA AND HIS WIFE LIVE TOGETHER HAPPILY FROM NOW ON AND FOREVER ~! GOD BLESS YOU TWO ~
HAPPY WEDDING ★ !
the party is really great ~ his wife's also pretty in her white wedding dress ~
it's the first time i met her , but , she's really a nice lady .
i'm so stiff at first , and nervous to sit beside her this morning ... but , aw ... she's really gorgeous ~! i really wanna have a big sis like this .
and , when she's trying to talk to me , i just answer a little and i'm nervous ! don;t know wanna say what to her !
but , i realized that she's really kind to me , and ... i'm getting along well with her !
she said she wanna have kids like me ~ nice to talk to ! waaa ~ what an honour ~!
she has long hair ( wavy at the end og her black hair ) , her skin is white , and her eyes're big ~! she's such a lovely person. she loves to pat my hair ~
and , my tua hia also unbelievably cool today with his tux ! for the first time i call hime handsome though ... it's so lucky for him to have such a beautiful and nice wife like her ...
oh ! also , at the party , i'm the one who had cream all over my body ( especially on my new dress ! ah , i love that dress though ! ) ... that's because all of my cousin aim for the cream at me .. ah , of course we do it when the party ends ... as soon as i got home , i take a shower and clean all my body , even though there's still some sweet scent of cakes ...
haha ... it's good and happy night ~!
HOPE TUA HIA AND HIS WIFE LIVE TOGETHER HAPPILY FROM NOW ON AND FOREVER ~! GOD BLESS YOU TWO ~
HAPPY WEDDING ★ !
★ today's a nightmare ★
uwaaaaa ! it's really disappointing !!
i really surprised for my report's result ... the other's subject is good for me , but ! THERE'S ONE SUBJECT THAT REALLY DRAGGED ALL OF MY EFFORT TO THE BOTTOM OF HELL !
aw , just because technically mistake in my Indonesian Language Subject , i got really bad score!
30 ! Thirty you know ! it's a record ... in all 11th grade , it's the worse ... and because of this score , all my good scores are dragged down , along with Indonesian language subject's score . Yup , of course ,because of that , the average of my scores is down ...
and , the result ... I'm 11th in my class .. even though i aim to be in best-ten ... and , the more frustating me , is the friend that i help all along the test , is got the 10th rank , the place that i aim .. haha , ironic right ? but ,nah .. that's okay .. it's already in the past ... so , why i regret anything ? it's technically my fault coz i made a mistake while doing my test .
hmm ... but , i really happy ... my besties all support me ! i'll do my best in the block exam !
i'll once again aim for the best-ten !!
i won't lose anymore , just wait for me ! ahahahaha !
but , really ... i envy my friends who got the best-ten ... i really want to have that position though ...
in my new class in the 11th grade is full of superior "smart" fellas ... so , i wanna challange myself .. how far i can go with my effort ... hahaha ... i love challanges ...
and , i think ... this kind of class is not bad at all ~ i love you NSC ★ !
ah , also ... CONGRATS FOR MY BELOVED BESTIES , VERA ANDIKA , FOR YOUR 1ST RANK IN SOCIAL SCIENCE CLASS ! KEEP IT UP ! I'M WAITING FOR YOUR TREATS !
AND CONGRATS TOO FOR MY RELIABLE FRIEND , TANRIANA FOR THE 1ST RANK TOO ~
GOOD LUCK ME ★★★★ !
i really surprised for my report's result ... the other's subject is good for me , but ! THERE'S ONE SUBJECT THAT REALLY DRAGGED ALL OF MY EFFORT TO THE BOTTOM OF HELL !
aw , just because technically mistake in my Indonesian Language Subject , i got really bad score!
30 ! Thirty you know ! it's a record ... in all 11th grade , it's the worse ... and because of this score , all my good scores are dragged down , along with Indonesian language subject's score . Yup , of course ,because of that , the average of my scores is down ...
and , the result ... I'm 11th in my class .. even though i aim to be in best-ten ... and , the more frustating me , is the friend that i help all along the test , is got the 10th rank , the place that i aim .. haha , ironic right ? but ,nah .. that's okay .. it's already in the past ... so , why i regret anything ? it's technically my fault coz i made a mistake while doing my test .
hmm ... but , i really happy ... my besties all support me ! i'll do my best in the block exam !
i'll once again aim for the best-ten !!
i won't lose anymore , just wait for me ! ahahahaha !
but , really ... i envy my friends who got the best-ten ... i really want to have that position though ...
in my new class in the 11th grade is full of superior "smart" fellas ... so , i wanna challange myself .. how far i can go with my effort ... hahaha ... i love challanges ...
and , i think ... this kind of class is not bad at all ~ i love you NSC ★ !
ah , also ... CONGRATS FOR MY BELOVED BESTIES , VERA ANDIKA , FOR YOUR 1ST RANK IN SOCIAL SCIENCE CLASS ! KEEP IT UP ! I'M WAITING FOR YOUR TREATS !
AND CONGRATS TOO FOR MY RELIABLE FRIEND , TANRIANA FOR THE 1ST RANK TOO ~
GOOD LUCK ME ★★★★ !
Thursday, October 21, 2010
★ at last ! it's coming ! ★
Hey ! it's tokimeki memorial 3rd story ! i already tried to download it , and when the download's completed , i can't play it !!
huweeee ! really upset .. i've wait for it foe a long time !
urgh , i really feel so bad when the game won't work ... i wonder if there's any error with my NDS ...
hmm , i already get all the endings for TMM 1st story and 2nd story ~ ★
aaah ~ i really wanna play TMM 3rd story ...
hmm , maybe my NDS is error or something like that ... uwaaaaa ! i really wish to play it !!! after i wait for so long to play it , but , it's really ended so bad !
should i go to game shop and ask the shop keeper to add the game to my DS ? argh ! i must pay again , though ...
I really so bored lately , no NDS games that's good ... But , nah .. who cares ... ★
ah , today's incredibly hot ... my class also have to clean the basketball yard ... aw , so tiring , and i've lost all of my energy ... eating sweets and get a lot of sleep will make me better , though ...
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
★ Long time no see ★
uwaaa ~ already 2 days not update any entry ... really miss my blog ~ ★
i really busy lately ( busy watching some korean drama ) , and there's so many homework ...
I wanna relax for a while ~! i worth for it ~!
Now i'm at school ~ ★ yay ~
i envy my friends blogs ~ so cool and up to date ~ !
wanna make my blog like them , nyahahah ★
ah , first , i wanna say " long time no see " to my blog ~
really miss it ~
i haven't have time to online lately ~
but that's okay , i'll keep updating some of entry ~
wakakakaka ★
ah , this entry is just for fun , and some lil' prank from me ~
Have a nice day ★
i really busy lately ( busy watching some korean drama ) , and there's so many homework ...
I wanna relax for a while ~! i worth for it ~!
Now i'm at school ~ ★ yay ~
i envy my friends blogs ~ so cool and up to date ~ !
wanna make my blog like them , nyahahah ★
ah , first , i wanna say " long time no see " to my blog ~
really miss it ~
i haven't have time to online lately ~
but that's okay , i'll keep updating some of entry ~
wakakakaka ★
ah , this entry is just for fun , and some lil' prank from me ~
Have a nice day ★
Monday, October 18, 2010
★ Best of all Photos - Approved - ★
Waaa ~ ★ Really unbelievable ... I don't remember taking any photos with that *blink* smile expression ~ ahahaha ... everyone really interested in it and they're laughing how strange my face in this photo ..
This photo was taken when we're taking class photo album ~★ How interesting ... i actually remember that i was running to catch the camera , so it can catch me well in the photo ... and the result is , the pepsodent smile that attached on my face *aww , so embarassed*
Ahaha , They approved that this photo is the best of the album , and my face is the mascot ... what'cha think ? haha , shine enough ?? haha ... ★★★
Really , this become hot topic in Natural Science Class ... They even thought about printing this photo and put it in our class .. and print it BIG ! How's that ? Really surprising for me ...
It's not like get a noble prize ~ nyahahah .. LOL ...
really , i laugh along with them while looking at this photo ... really unbelievable ...
i share this photo with you guys ~ enjoy ★
Sunday, October 17, 2010
★ Halloween is Near ★
Waaiii ~ Haloween is Near ~★
i really want to go to Halloween party once in a while ~
i go with my cousin last year , but , i really hope there's halloween party at my school ( even though it's too impossible ) = , = ;
i really have fun at the Halloween party last year ...
i don't have time to make any costume , so my cousin and me just wear dark dress and dark accesories , and it's not bad at all ~ ★
hahaha ...
Halloween party is kinda rare lately ,huh ? i don;t know why , but , just some of them celebrate it ..
last year i got many sweets and candies ~ from kind people at the party ~ they're so nice , aren't they ? ★★★
I wish that i can go to halloween party this year ~ But , nah , nobody go i think ... my friends cant go with me , and my cousin won't go this year too ... so , maybe i'll stay at home ...
even though i really look forward to this year's Halloween Party , it's okay , i'll celebrate it personally ~ ★
nyahahah ... Here's a lil' present for Halloween ~ ★
Synopsis - The Prayer in The Rain -
umm , maybe this entry is not too necessary ...
but , my cousin already make me post the synopsis of my ongoing novel ...
okay , the title is " The Prayer in The Rain " ...
The Heroine of this story is Vivi , a Transfer student from America and go to Tokyo as her father ask her . Because of her Blonde Hair and Blue eyes , she's really catch people's attention . Even though she's only have 1/4of American blood .. LOL ...
At her new school , she's get bullied by another girls that envy her beauty and she always gets attention from 2 popular boys at school , Kyou and Teru , even though everyone didn't know the true nature of bpth of those boys ...
Kyou , the trouble-maker always got into fights inside and outside school , with his cool and wild personalities , he's always admired by everyone , even though some of them called Kyou with "scary" and "trouble" . Vivi found out that Kyou's not scary at all and it's the opposite ...
At first , Kyou just care with Vivi just because of pity and uninterested because Vivi always get bullied , but , it's turned out that he's in the Spring season of love .
Teru , the "Prince" of XX High School always surrounded by all of people , with his "smiley" and kind personalities , everyone really addicted to him ... But , actually , all of the Smiles hide something that only Vivi knows ... He become interested in Vivi and treat her "very" differently from people . And , who knows that it's actually ... ( you know what )
While Vivi's new school life starting , her past about her ex-best friend in America is still haunting her ... The dreams keep following her ...
What'll happen to all of them ? all of troubles keep coming , and who'll Vivi and with ?
argh !! i post it !! umm , it's not interesting at all ... at least i think so , maybe ... i don't know what everyone think about it , but , i post this just for fun ...
and , it's still not finished yet ... i think it'll be a long story ...
★ enjoy ★
but , my cousin already make me post the synopsis of my ongoing novel ...
okay , the title is " The Prayer in The Rain " ...
The Heroine of this story is Vivi , a Transfer student from America and go to Tokyo as her father ask her . Because of her Blonde Hair and Blue eyes , she's really catch people's attention . Even though she's only have 1/4of American blood .. LOL ...
At her new school , she's get bullied by another girls that envy her beauty and she always gets attention from 2 popular boys at school , Kyou and Teru , even though everyone didn't know the true nature of bpth of those boys ...
Kyou , the trouble-maker always got into fights inside and outside school , with his cool and wild personalities , he's always admired by everyone , even though some of them called Kyou with "scary" and "trouble" . Vivi found out that Kyou's not scary at all and it's the opposite ...
At first , Kyou just care with Vivi just because of pity and uninterested because Vivi always get bullied , but , it's turned out that he's in the Spring season of love .
Teru , the "Prince" of XX High School always surrounded by all of people , with his "smiley" and kind personalities , everyone really addicted to him ... But , actually , all of the Smiles hide something that only Vivi knows ... He become interested in Vivi and treat her "very" differently from people . And , who knows that it's actually ... ( you know what )
While Vivi's new school life starting , her past about her ex-best friend in America is still haunting her ... The dreams keep following her ...
What'll happen to all of them ? all of troubles keep coming , and who'll Vivi and with ?
argh !! i post it !! umm , it's not interesting at all ... at least i think so , maybe ... i don't know what everyone think about it , but , i post this just for fun ...
and , it's still not finished yet ... i think it'll be a long story ...
★ enjoy ★
Saturday, October 16, 2010
★ G'Morning Sunday ★
Aww , i woke up late again ... ahahaha ...
it's afternoon already , isn't it ?
and , it so HOT !! curse you dry season !
i want rainy season come back ... it's cool and can make me relax without problem ...
and , my brain can't work well if it's hot ...
= , = ;
really ... so HOT and , the sky is too sunny ! No sign of raining !!
But , it's okay , even though it's hot ...
i have to finish the novel...
Argh !! Tomorrow is school ! Darn it , i really bad at wake up in the early morning ..
it makes me crazy ...
so sleepy and my soul seems going somewhere out there .. haha , keep dreaming ?
I hope there's no Flag Ceremony .... In this hot climate + flag ceremony = DIE + HELL !
Ah , tomorrow also have Math in the schedule ... aw , this will keep me busy all day ...
At least let the rain pour today ... it's terribly hot ...
i'm having Roast Bread + Milk for my breakfast today ... it's yummy ~★
i have Milk everyday , but i'm still a short High school girl ...
Yesterday , i was mistaken as a Middle School Girl ! It's a humiliation , don't you think ?
aw , it's suck ! I'll kill that person someday .. LOL
it's afternoon already , isn't it ?
and , it so HOT !! curse you dry season !
i want rainy season come back ... it's cool and can make me relax without problem ...
and , my brain can't work well if it's hot ...
= , = ;
really ... so HOT and , the sky is too sunny ! No sign of raining !!
But , it's okay , even though it's hot ...
i have to finish the novel...
Argh !! Tomorrow is school ! Darn it , i really bad at wake up in the early morning ..
it makes me crazy ...
so sleepy and my soul seems going somewhere out there .. haha , keep dreaming ?
I hope there's no Flag Ceremony .... In this hot climate + flag ceremony = DIE + HELL !
Ah , tomorrow also have Math in the schedule ... aw , this will keep me busy all day ...
At least let the rain pour today ... it's terribly hot ...
i'm having Roast Bread + Milk for my breakfast today ... it's yummy ~★
i have Milk everyday , but i'm still a short High school girl ...
Yesterday , i was mistaken as a Middle School Girl ! It's a humiliation , don't you think ?
aw , it's suck ! I'll kill that person someday .. LOL
Megurine Luka-Just Be Friends
Here's the Lyrics ~ English translation
Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends It's time to say goodbye
Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends Just be friends...
It came to mind in the early morning yesterday
As if I gathered broken pieces of glass
What the heck is this? Drips from my cut finger
Is this what we really hoped for?
I knew it at the bottom of my heart, the hardest choice would be the best
My self-love refuses it and repeats self-contradiction
When can I tell it to you?
In the slowly decaying world, I'm struggling but it's the only way
Carving your faded smiles, I pulled out the plug
I screamed with my hoarse voice, rebound and resonance echo in vain
Nothing is left at the end of the unchained me
Coincidences that sticked us degenerates into the dark and are broken in pieces
"No matter what we do, life is just like that" I mumbled
Somebody's tears flow down the dried cheeks
All we gotta do Just be friends
It's time to say goodbye Just be friends
All we gotta do Just be friends
Just be friends Just be friends...
Yesterday a tranquil night made me realize
It'd be useless to pick up fallen petals
Because it'd never bloom again
It's tiny but already dead on my palms
Our time stopped long ago
I remember the season we met first and your grace smile
Bringing up old issues, we hurt each other as badly as possible
Our minds are full of thorns
With this continuous dull relationship
Grievously I can't change my mind
I still love you, I don't wanna be apart from you, but I have to tell you
It's raining heavily in my mind, I'm stunned, I'm standing dead, my vision is blurry
Despite my determination, the pain is still penetrating
The bond between us has come apart and is dying away in everyday
Goodbye, my sweetheart, it's over
We have to leave without turning back
Just once, just once, if I could have my wish to come true
I'd be born again and again and go see you on those days
I screamed with my hoarse voice, rebound and resonance echo in vain
Nothing is left at the end of the unchained me
The bond between us has come apart and is dying away in everyday
Goodbye, my sweetheart, it's over
We have to leave without turning back
It's all over
uwaaa ! when i listen to this song , i cried , you know ! Luka's so sad ... being left like that ...but , i also confused ... they're both love each other , but why they have to seperated ? i really cry ... haha ... ah , by the way , this song is sung from the boy's side who leave Luka .. enjoy ~
The Prayer in the Rain
arghh ! i'm now working for my new novel ...
The title is " The Prayer in The Rain " ... i really serious in this novel , ahaha ...
my cousin said , " Why don't you update your novel to your blog ? who knows if anyone read your novel ? "
Yeah , easy to say , man ... i really feel shy if anyone read my novels ...
because i don't know what people think about my novel ..
hmm , i don't know what to do ! necause i just finished chapter 3 ...
umm ... really ... i'll update the synopsis next time ... let me finish first ..
and i'll think again about posting my novel ..
ahahaha ... really , this make me crazy , but i love writing ... so what ?
The title is " The Prayer in The Rain " ... i really serious in this novel , ahaha ...
my cousin said , " Why don't you update your novel to your blog ? who knows if anyone read your novel ? "
Yeah , easy to say , man ... i really feel shy if anyone read my novels ...
because i don't know what people think about my novel ..
hmm , i don't know what to do ! necause i just finished chapter 3 ...
umm ... really ... i'll update the synopsis next time ... let me finish first ..
and i'll think again about posting my novel ..
ahahaha ... really , this make me crazy , but i love writing ... so what ?
Friday, October 15, 2010
I Want it !!! T ^ T
uwaaah ! i just found this picture in a website ! it's an editted photo of Black★Rock Shooter Figurine ~!
Kyaaaa ~! i really like this one ! i've checked the prize and it's so expensive ! Darn it !
i ask my Mom about it , and my Mom won't buy it for me ... aw , i'm down ...
But , really ... i really like Vocaloid and i also fans of Black★Rock Shooter ~
At least i want it ! i want it so badly , but , oh well ... i'll adore it in my heart ~! hahaha ...
i also love Black★Rock Shooter by Hatsune Miku .. it's so cool and i listen to it everyday ...
ah , i also watched Black★Rock Shooter's OVA ... So cool ~!
Black★Rock Shooter , i'm your fans ~!
Lack of Imagination
i have no imagination lately ... i really into writing novels now ...
but , i have no good idea that can be used for my novels ...
yesterday i have to stay all night to think some good idea ...
it also same for my drawing activities ... i have no idea what to draw...
my friend ask me to draw an anime character with Halloween theme ,
but now , i don't know what to draw ..
tha cause ?
ah , maybe because i'm having mid-term test not long ago and i'm not drawing any for more than 1 week ... ah , i can't think about anything ...
Lack of Imagination makes me crazy ...
= , =
but , i have no good idea that can be used for my novels ...
yesterday i have to stay all night to think some good idea ...
it also same for my drawing activities ... i have no idea what to draw...
my friend ask me to draw an anime character with Halloween theme ,
but now , i don't know what to draw ..
tha cause ?
ah , maybe because i'm having mid-term test not long ago and i'm not drawing any for more than 1 week ... ah , i can't think about anything ...
Lack of Imagination makes me crazy ...
= , =
Lots of Word - We are Alive
have you ever feel that you're not alive ?
everytime you're together with your friends , have you ever feel that you're slightly pushed away from the circle ?
i have ...
i feel that i'm not needed at that time ..
and i even think that it'll be better if i'm not around .
haha , ridiculous of course ...
i'm here afterall ... if i wanna disappear somewhere , it's too late right ?
That's why , i realize this when i spend my time with my precious besties ...
" Hey , i'm alive afterall .. they need me , and i also need them ... i'm here and they know that ..."
after that , i'm glad ... i'm needed and i don;t need to be confused anymore ..
it's simple but it'll be complicated if we take it so lightly ...
i hope i can share this with everyone ...
i just wanna say that " WE ALL HUMANS ALIVE ... "
everytime you're together with your friends , have you ever feel that you're slightly pushed away from the circle ?
i have ...
i feel that i'm not needed at that time ..
and i even think that it'll be better if i'm not around .
haha , ridiculous of course ...
i'm here afterall ... if i wanna disappear somewhere , it's too late right ?
That's why , i realize this when i spend my time with my precious besties ...
" Hey , i'm alive afterall .. they need me , and i also need them ... i'm here and they know that ..."
after that , i'm glad ... i'm needed and i don;t need to be confused anymore ..
it's simple but it'll be complicated if we take it so lightly ...
i hope i can share this with everyone ...
i just wanna say that " WE ALL HUMANS ALIVE ... "
Thursday, October 14, 2010
the 1st entry 14th October 2010
yo , minna ! Akane desu ! it's my first day blogging , and here's my new entry ...
follow me and visit my blog .. then be my friend ~ love ya all ~ !
follow me and visit my blog .. then be my friend ~ love ya all ~ !
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