★ It's the miracle of X'mas ★

Aw , it's already so long that i'm not posting any news here ~
but , that's okay .
it's the night of Christmas Eve here .
i really hope that the snow will fall here ~ LOL

ah , if that's really happen , then it's x'mas miracle ~!
wooo-hoo ~! How fun it will be ...

Not long after this , 2010 will end in a blink of eye !
I really miss my bloggie here ... aww ...

3 days from now is my birthday .
it's kinda sad because i can't really celebrate it with my besties right on 27th ,
but , it'll be coming soon ~! LOL

my birthday is 2 days right after X'mas .
How fun is that ? lol ... actually nothing makes it different from another dates though .

Ah , I already miss my friend .
i wonder what they're doing this X'mas and New Year ...
i wish i could spend this eves with them , though .
Ah , i also wait for school festival ~!
kyaa ~! Gakkou no Matsuri desu ~ ★

My big bro also comes home . so , it'll be so fun ,
at least i think so .
In his damn laptop , there's so many good movies and musics ! argh , why is he always got so many good stuff ????
lol
envy him so much .

Argh , but ... btw , i really want to see a white christmas here! even though the possibilities of it become true is zero percent !!
i still wish to see it .

i'm a little addict4ed to Korea right now ~
but of course , i love nippon ~! ★★★

Urgh , but , my X'mas eve is just alone at home ...
i really wanna go to church with my big bro , even though i'm not a Christian here .
hahahaha ...

But , i really believe that the Miracle of X'mas is really exist somewhere .
lol , just having so many wish this year . i love this very much ...

MERRY CHRISTMAS ★

BEST REGARDS : DEXY VANIA LOVINA ★★★

★ There's no way to turn back ★

when i decide that , i felt really doubt myself .
from the start there's no one that i really belive in.
but , in order to create the new me , i made that crazy decision.
You ,
who i thought i'll never involved myself to you .
i decide to involve my self .
i tried and tried to create my new self ,
but i always end up being so fake .

You told me that i'm okay just be me .
And you also told me that i don't really have to change.
but !
i have to change !
if i remain like this , i'm no good at all .

And , i decide to be myself , and left you .
i envy my friend who can open up with her friends .
i envy my friend that can get along so well with the others .
i ency my friend that can be the leader .
i envy my friend who can attract many people .
i envy my friend who always surrounded by her friends that take side with her .
i also want to be like that .
After a while not seeing YOU ,
i met you again .

i told you about how i envy all my friends that's all better than me .
and you said .
" you maybe felt that , but , don't you think that it's easier to see other people's ability and good sides than seeing ourselves good sides ? "
i stunned by hearing your words .
" you just have to realize that you're not an useless person . you also have a good side that will be useful to other people ."

And , not long after that , i become the current me .
until now , i still feel grateful to you .
Thanks to you , i can be myself now .
the current me , is the me that i love most .
i can still remember you . but , even though i don't know where you are now .
i really need to say thanks to you .
Really , you helped me .

after become the current me , there's no way i'll turn back to the old self , isn't it ?
we may look at the past , but the time that we must chase is the FUTURE .


Hey , how have you been ? i'm doing well here . Hope you also doing fine .
From : dexy to : someone kind whose name i don't know .